My Journey...Part 1

Journey that leads to self-discovery, self-worth and freedom. So has the journey for me been thus far in this life that's but a vapor. Born to two wonderful God-fearing people and an answer to the prayers of a 9 year old sister, and 6 year old brother, I entered the world on the 16th of August in 1989. Free-spirited and feisty, stubborn & strong willed yet full of passion for both people and life; these are just a few pieces of who I am. My mom prayed often, when spanking me countless times a day, that I be saved young. She had her prayers answered when I was seven as I gave myself to the Lord & was baptized. Here the journey began. . . my younger years consisted of being home schooled, piano lessons and having strangers stay in our house. Little did I know then that those moments, days & years spent surrounded by others would mold me into who I am today. My parents life and faith paving a way for my life & faith as well. Ministry & music were what I lived and breathed. Seeing others liberated by Jesus & music are what stroke the chord in my heart. Soon these two things consumed me and caused me to lose sight of my true identity in Christ. I felt a disconnect from the Lord and entered into a season of deception and compromise, my dark night of the soul. For 3 years I shoved the pain inside, picked myself up by bootstraps and put on a happy face. All my hopes and dreams quickly dissipating before my eyes. My heart and soul longed for breakthrough, change. I tried on my own strength and failed miserably every time...until I heard a voice of reasoning call to me in my brokenness and beckon me to lay down everything I knew and was so comfortable with. I KNEW right then and there it was the Lord calling me out of my darkness into the newness of life that He had in store for me. In this life new passions and desires being placed deep inside. The fear of man crumbling before my eyes, I soon found confidence rising up as He poured his love into me while in the secret place, through a season of 6 months in an internship, in a tiny prayer room, in a foreign state of which I knew no one. Just me and Him alone, in complete stillness. . . (More to come)